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24 December 2012 @ 04:28 pm
This is me being selfish  
This sport is selfish. It's no more selfish than any other sport with dedicated athletes except the solitude. I think it's why runners make great friends. I am completely accepting of a friend being completely selfish as long as they are honest about it. I give them a pass because some day, I'll want that pass back.

It's selfish to dictate schedules. It's selfish to go to bed early. It's selfish to knowingly not be able to give 100% at work. It's selfish to emotionally drain yourself to the point where you have less to give others. My initial thought about any schedule change is, "How will this affect my runs?"

Even my own sister's wedding scheduling is some what at the mercy of my Spring marathon race schedule.

Even my own best friend visiting from out of state makes me think "I hope we don't drink too much so that I can still get in quality workouts."

And maybe why it's even more selfish than other sports is, I can perceive it and practice it with the same enthusiasm, dedication, and obsession as an Olympian. Just a week left in 2012 and I've averaged an hour of running every day. Factor in the time to get ready, cool down, shower, stretch and the probably extra 100 hours spent doing weights and other supporting exercises and it's even more.

And I'm not even paid for doing this.

I'm not even remotely close to getting paid to do this.

I'm in that buffer zone between sub elite and regular guy. If it's not a super competitive race I have a chance of taking my age group. In my last 3 NYC races I finished in the top 1% of competitors.

And I am leagues away from the top of the field.

And the guy that finishes last probably spends the same amount of energy towards this sport. We all do it.

But maybe the reason why I can love my family the way I do, the reason why I have a 7+ year stable relationship, the reason why I have a promising career, is because I am 100% selfish for 2 hours a day.

yah. I'll stick with that.
Johnnyironjohnny on December 26th, 2012 02:08 am (UTC)
And I think that's a totally logical argument.